=X.I am an Idiot.= (Fan Creations)

by INSANEdrive, ಥ_ಥ | f(ಠ‿↼)z | ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ| ¯\_(ツ)_/¯, Sunday, April 03, 2022, 15:43 (964 days ago) @ INSANEdrive

Well, congratulations. You made it.
Welcome to the home stretch.
I admit, it did have its silly moments, which were fun to write.
I hope they were fun to read, and that they lent forth
some interesting sight.

Despite what art or tendency I'm helpless to bring, that a wider sense of things can be made of it.
And while, I did not intend for this to be so much more an event, it apparently simply needed to be.
By what reason or happenstance, is at present, simply unknown to me. ...But, I can hope.

Of the thoughts I could bring to bear in an evening, I might as well finish here.
And while I do not bring meaning to the true of the word, it is indeed still true.
As where I sit, I'm but helpless to it.
Despite all evidence contrary, for myself... it's nothing new...

...and I am an Idiot.

It is beyond frustrating, to find limit in your sight. How dare I, a mere mortal, be so constrained to light.
Most of my criticism, observations, and whatever else I've brung,
brought about,
Shown before you to look SOMETHING LIKE THIS!
Implies, without me personally doing so, a certain perfection.
That the clock is 9 to 5, and that everything is going to plan.
I make it sound oh so pure and simple, like some blue-bird song collection,
echoing in the hills.

I am an Idiot.

Despite my hopes that everyone reading this either understands,
or is able to bring them selves in to know "in on the joke,"
I know that some of you might not be reguler DBO folk,
and that you may miss that.
People who have worked SO HARD to provide for their families and... us!
WE THE FANS!
Only to be roasted by some git, a kebob and a spit,
some unknown face, seemingly proclaiming their wrath as some kind of wit.
I bring no excuse. Know my full apology here now.

I am an Idiot.

I know there is a limit to what can be said by Bungie.
A pure shame, indeed, as it's fun talking shop sometimes. About that creative brass.
Sharing love and task, with out even a need to ask.
We're all creators in some way, and right now, this is what I have to create. Alas!
For the silence we find, we must blame the risk of a wretched world. Blame the lawyers. Blame the laws. Blame the folks who are ACTUALLY toxic. Making death threats and harnessing game developers. *Spit*
...I know that this is just a game.
And yet, for me to spend so much time with my scribbles here?
I must speak again all the same-

-I am an Idiot.

Boundless enthusiasm to bring, wasted here. Saved still by the joy of unknown peer.
An insane drive, if you will, and it's a shame that,
for now, this is the easiest way for me to show that enthusiasm. Chat chat chat!
Lost in a world that dares to ask of my acquirements.
To bring forth "proof" in a world of shapes and requirements.
A madman who knows no shape. Who CLEARLY has nothing to give on a page.
"Clearly, this is so true."
3 seconds glance is all that is due.

I am an Idiot.

And it's a shame. Not just that I am an idiot, but that for all my unrequited passion, whatever good thoughts I DO bring forward are so lost in a sea of words. That I must swim to the outskirts of my mind, lips clenched and chest tight, just to have a chance to bring forth unknown riches (should their sparkle prove true) to the surface.

I'm an Idiot. But, I am not stupid.
De omni re scibili et quibusdam aliis,
Thank you, Bungie. I look forward to the next one.

Cheers,

INSANEdrive

But I, being poor, have only my dreams; I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams. ~ W.B. Yeats