A bit of reflection (Destiny)

by Kermit , Raleigh, NC, Tuesday, July 08, 2014, 20:33 (3800 days ago) @ Avateur
edited by Kermit, Tuesday, July 08, 2014, 20:36

I started that “blankie” sentence with “what bugs me.” That doesn’t translate into being “so mad” as you’ve characterized me. Regardless, I thought apologizing for being overwrought covered some ground, including saying that “many were screaming like somebody took their blankie.” Let me now apologize specifically for that. It wasn’t intended as a personal attack. It was an observation based on what I saw here and on Bungie.net, but I could have and should have expressed it less dramatically.

Please don’t question my respect for Pete or Ragashingo. Never said screw either of them, no sir. I don’t know what this consequence you speak of is that I didn’t suffer but others did. We have people here who disagree and expressed themselves. That is all.

Please don’t disregard MY opinions because I’m a PS4 owner. I could live without the exclusives, and I’d planned to for a while after I first heard about them. The beta has never been anything but pure gravy in my eyes--a generous freebie. There are a myriad of reasons for my PS4 purchase (made just before E3), involving friends IRL and virtual. The Last of Us blew my mind and caused me to consider that I may have been cloistered. The lynchpin, though, was community. I want to play with my friends here. I'm very fortunate I could afford to acquire other platforms (though it's not been without sacrifice). I’m aware of that.

One last thing. I’m 50 freaking years old. I figured out a while ago that I’m not the reason for the season. I’m (I love DeBerga’s phrase) grizzled and prone to entertaining perspective. Pre-Halo, I spent many years waiting and hoping for cool games to be ported to my platform of choice. That required a ton of patience--patience that often went unrewarded. Bungie helped make things better back then. I’m grateful to them, you see. They’ve given me more than I’ve ever given them. Gratitude wasn’t very evident yesterday, and yes, it bothered me. We had more significant reasons to be angry at Bungie in 2000, but I wasn’t angry at them, even then. In all honesty, my Bungie fandom has been tested more than ever this year. Playing the Alpha restored some faith. It’s not at its high-water mark, but it’s creeping back up. I want my Behind the Scenes vidoc with Marty talking about audio. I’ll never have it. Here we are. Amor fati. Love fate. It’s a choice.